"You used to believe in this city of miracles,
but that was three heartbreaks ago.
it’s been sleeping with the windows open
hoping someone will hear
your heart breaking
from three doors down.
it’s been thinking too long about
cashiers who ask you how your day’s been and
tell you to stay safe.
it’s been setting the sky on fire
and dancing in the ash that follows.
it’s been poetry you can’t understand
and poetry that rips you apart in the wrong places.
staying up at night to talk to your oldest mistake,
when you swear you’re just praying
When you swear you’ve
moved beyond all of that."
Y.Z, how long’s it been since you’ve felt unhaunted?
"I don’t want to settle. I want mindfucking love. I want to spend all night thinking about kissing you, and when I finally get the guts to, I want to go deaf to everything but that moment. I refuse to settle for anything less."